Welcome Into The Darkness

dis morning my heart felt sick.. literally, i think coz i xtido dgn btul ar during this few days.. now da okay sketla.. this morning class went fine.. i takut gkla class mtc 016 i coz it’s tutorial class n i xbace pape pon sbb sebok bace csc last minute but then, puan ima was in her good mood td, thank god! then, test csc.. sir ckp xde essay just fill in the blanks.. skali pas2 question paper ade ak esssay! giler ah.. tp2, lum abis agi.. since sir kitorg giler baik+sporting, kitorg negotiate bout the test.. lawak kn? so, in de end, kitorgnyer test just jwp true/false for 15 questions n 6 soalan essay jd assignment.. coool n best giler!!thanx sir!! sat lg im going to bel 250 class n den balik!!!!! cuti!

yesterday i got a test kan.. it went bad.. i blacked out time bace the 1st question.. biler tgk xde answer 4 numbr 1 pnye question, mood nk buat numbr 2 n 3 n so on pon da giler lari.. at dat moment my desk kinda bersepah.. i felt like throwing all the stuff on my desk n scream.. lps tuh, sabar gkla smp glak sorg2 coz nk try thn sedeyh..abis tuh, try jgakla buat numbr 5 n 6.. tgh buat tuh kuar a sket2 idea for the 1st 4 questions.. but i left a few important points.. n i believe im going to suck in that test.. i’ll just have to accept it.. however, im confused, why? what did i do to get into such a situation padehal i hve read all the stuffn da igt gkla like more than 5 times… maybe im just having a badluck, normal..4 me..

i wonder, why i never had any bf? i mean, usually girls my age has had one at least once.. am i that ugly? huhh, i guess im just not lucky with this lurv thing, sad.. but then, people sure xpcaye when i told them.. dude, why would i lie.. im seriously a virgin to the core it seems like im desperate to have a bf.. i don’t know..but, no matter how desperate i would be, im so not going to just pick a bf out of nowhere.. u get what im saying? i seriously don’t understand those yg buat contract coupling.. funny pon ade, dumb pon ade.. oh ya, heartless pon ade.. tah pape.. another one, yg bf or gf keliling pinggang.. is it cool to do so? i wonder..

ni nk citer bout naik bus kt uitm… giler adventure!!!

kalo tme nk naik, u can just stay stagnant, people around will push u, hopefully towards the bus’ door ar… carefull not to be pushed into the longkang or tepi jln eh!

okay, pas da naik bus tuh, dlm 2 brpusu-pusu cm nk buat umrah/haji… biler bus start jln, inersia will try its best to make u fall… ;O mlg giler coz xde org muke cm brad pitt utk buat2 jatuh, hehe ;P xdla, kidding, haram woo…

tgh dlm prjlanan tu plak, kalo driver cm ngantuk or anything yg ble nyebabkn bwk bus cm tutup mate, ttibe akn teringatla lagu "knockin’ on heaven’s door" by gun’s n roses… i xtau org lain, but i cm harap gkla, pintu heaven tu trbukak dgn snang atinyer 4 me =)

on d way nk turun tuh, make sure your body tu dikempiskn sekempis-kempisnyer… if not, possibility utk tersekat sane sini tuh amatla high.. it’s fine with me though if u ske main skat2 nih

yg xbley blah tu, uncle driver bus skolah yg indian nih lg polite dr majority of uncle driver bus uitm yg malay nih.. org ckp time kasih kt dorg, muke selenge jek.. ai, nasibla aku naik bus.. kalo jln kaki je pon ble, da lame aku kritik dorg.. malu la sket, indians pon tau ckp "ye" or "okay" or "same2".. aiyo, yennade!!!

People outside who’s reading this.. Let us take a moment to think about problems arising in this world. What happened to the civilized world that some of us think we used to have one n some who think that we never had one? I fall in the 2nd category though.. Why this problems are arising nowadays? I’m referring to the lebanon n israel case now.. Basically, all blames are on us human beings..  I went for ’solat hajat’ that was arranged by my univesity to wish that peace will come soon for palaestin, lebanon n other islamic country that’s facing the war right now. I was praying for the sake of the children there though since they are new to this world.. But, honestly, for the sake of the adults, I was a bit uninterested to do.. You might wonder, why? It’s just that this singer, remember, the one who sang "nour el shams".. ? She came up in my mind.. She’s lebanese right? Can you understand what I’m trying to tell you? It’s like, I don’t feel that they deserve our prayers… Maybe peeps out there don’t feel the same thing.. But, I do hope strongly that peace will come soon for them n peace will be here in our country for at least as long as I’m still alive..

hehe, im at my mom’s office now.. tu yg kinda happy smacam

but then, ader tension sket bout my university pnyer schedule.. beng-ong giler, main tukar2, postponed2, batal2 last minute ak.. gram tul..

whatever happen, im so going to skip a day at least 2 send my sis kt airport nnti..

im here to apologize about yesterday’s post which i kinda go over the board.. had u read my blog, i’ve said some a** words n guess what? it turned out that the meeting was not really a meeting.. it was a urine test! of all the things! btw, we did it using our eyes. yup, it was a urine test with eyes.. i guess technology does make life easier..sometimes..

nyways, 2day i carried 1142 photostat papers n now my back is aching.. i vow not to do it again though.. shit, nasib xde test sok. oh ya, my test td went fine i guess if my judgement of my answers are rite.. dis computer is bengong, lembap giler.. i guess, i’ll ciao now dlu. nex time post lagi.

buenas guys.. guess what, tonite i got this meeting coz i didn’t attend the ramah mesra pelajar thingy.. lame kn… even worse, i got test 2morrow… shit tul ar ass those yg cibai sgt nk poyo2 nih.. i mean, duhh… this is university man, not some primary or secondary schools.. kalo da miss sgt life skola kecik2 dlu, gi ar blk mninjau skola lamer.. ngader tul a… btw, dis sunday at 7am those freak adekn gotong-royong?? aiya, boring giler babeng ah.. tension pale gue..

2day, i woke up like always but im not like always.. my head was spinning so badlyi felt like i just went 4 a 720 degree rollercoaster ride.. i felt nausea(not that im pregnant okay!) but i still went 2 the bathroom 2 bathe.. just 2 avoid lining up later if u know what i mean.. i came back 2my room n decided i couldn’t bare myselfgoing 2 class like that.. so i slept.. i woke up at around 9.30 n felt a bit better so i prepared myself 2 go 2 class even though it’s late.. well, i guess the thought that matters rite? but guess what, i arrived at my class’ building around 10am n i saw my classmates already walking 2wards the bus stop.. hm?? one of my classmates told me the class was over n that there will be no class after this..! oh well… thought that matters aite… 

wah!!! tension giler babi ar paler otak aku nih dis week.. mane xnyer, i thought ive graduate my high school, rupenye still stuck in de same damn shit formula of primary/high school’s formula which is force n coercion!!! in a simple word, kne pakse!!!! bangang tul r, aku nk blk gk dis week! knapela jpk2 nih tergedik-gedik nk beramah mesra ak? n for 3 days my goodness gracious! tah hape yg nk mesre tah.. nk mesre2 blah ar dgn blk masing2..! u know what i think? i think they’re juz jealous 2 see de newbies (cz newbies je yg kne..) blk home every weekend..! f*** ar this peeps if that’s their motif…